My dreams? I'm lost, I'm sorry.

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thread starter cwalkpikachu Feb 19 2010 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

[I apologize for the long wall of text!] Ever since I was young, I was always told and encouraged to become a doctor. And at an earlier point of my life, I did as well. That all changed when I had turned thirteen. Ever since I turned thirteen, my heart completely told me what I wanted to do when I was older. That was to become a performer (dancing and singing/rapping). To be honest, my entire life growing up, I never was truly certain on what to do, until I saw my idol, G-Dragon. Since I was ten, I had always loved music. Right now, I'm turning seventeen in a few months. When I entered 8Th grade, dancing was my passion (from popping to cwalking, from tutting to krumping, you name it!). At the same time in 8Th grade was when I discovered G-Dragon (Leader of Big Bang). I can feel his heart on stage, I knew he loved what he did. I began listening to Big Bang's song more often. I would practice G-Dragon and T.O.P's (another member who raps as well) rap verses, I still do. Now, everyday I would imagine a life doing so, being leader G-Dragon. Performing on stage, dancing and rapping. How good life would be to sing your heart out? But. In my heart, I know that my parent would entirely hate me if I chose to do that and dishonor their wishes. They already have doubt that I can become a doctor though my average is a 95% as a sophomore. The reason? I received a B- in Geometry, the rest of my grades were 92+ (most being in the 95+). So as of now, I try everyday to make my grades my life. It's hard. It really angers me though, I try so hard in school yet my parent doubt me and think that I won't be able to finish school because I'm not intelligent enough. I only want right now is to please my parents and show them that I do have what it takes to become a doctor. However, that's not what I want to do. I just want to perform on stage, at concerts. Though I'm almost certain that this want of mine, will fade as a dream. Because though this is what I truly want to be, my rapping, as well as singing, is mediocre. Though I practice everyday. The only thing I'm good at is dancing, but whenever I watch G-Dragon performs, my heart yearns for that. I really don't know what to do. I'm afraid that if I follow my dream to become a performer like my idol, I won't even make pass audition and then I'll lose time to become a doctor. And if I pursue my parent's dreams, then there's most-likely a chance I'd be unhappy in the future. Help. Again, if it helps, I'm turning 17 soon. Question I've been asked: You have time before you have to go through medical school, don't you? Why not work toward both and decide later? Have you ever actually performed in front of a crowd? You might try it and decide that you don't like it. You can't explore things just from looking at youtube. You've got to do it for yourself. Can you job shadow a doctor sometime? The only way to know anything for sure is to try it out. Response: If I become a performer, I would like to try and get into JYPE or YG

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peopleschamp 02/19/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Just do what YOU want to? Who cares, it's your life. But what do I know, I'm just a gray blob.

flarebow100 02/19/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

[quote] peopleschamp : Just do what YOU want to? Who cares, it's your life. But what do I know, I'm just a gray blob. [/quote] Most gray blobs are knows to be smarterer then people with an avatar.

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matthewxx 02/19/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

I had the most enlightening dream last night. I've had it earlier before and it involves a ritual of collecting things and then at a certain time everybody stands on this stump thing and falls back. In the other one I died in the process of falling and in this one I fell and actually FELT dizzy when I woke up. I googled rituals in dreams and it has something to do about a change in your life. I like change, this pleases me.

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XmoheganX 02/19/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

[quote] flarebow100 : Most gray blobs are knows to be smarterer then people with an avatar. [/quote] You prove that impeccably. @ TS I know this sounds trite, cliche', stupid (your pick). But really, it [is] your life, do what you want. You may not know exactly what you want to do now, but go for all or nothing. Go for broke.

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xiillusion007 02/19/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Where do you get an avatar? OT - Just live your life.

ricerush 02/19/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Well personally i HATE BIG BANG and G-Dragon, but anyway, follow your dream. Only an insane person would not follow their dream. You will go to hell, you will have regrets, you will suffer if you don't. You will take a look at your life maybe at around 40 or 50 years old and you will think to yourself. "what the hell was I thinking?" You do not want to be in that position. Let your dreams guide you. Humans are capable of extraordinary feats. Dream, son. Dream.

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BrownEkko 02/19/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Do both. Your oyung right now, so pursue dance and music. As you become older, become a doctor.

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cwalkpikachu 02/19/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

[quote] ricerush : Well personally i HATE BIG BANG and G-Dragon, but anyway, follow your dream. Only an insane person would not follow their dream. You will go to hell, you will have regrets, you will suffer if you don't. You will take a look at your life maybe at around 40 or 50 years old and you will think to yourself. "what the hell was I thinking?" You do not want to be in that position. Let your dreams guide you. Humans are capable of extraordinary feats. Dream, son. Dream. [/quote] But I'm afraid that BECAUSE it's a dream, when I wake up, it'll be over like that. And in the end, I'd end up a failure. Because if I do pursue my dream, and I don't make it, how will I face the real world again [my parents and friends]?

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SuckMyKiss 02/19/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Become a doctor, but dance in the underground during college years. that's when you'll have the most free time, and you'll be in college for a hella long time. By the time you're ready to be a doctor, your dancing/performingness will be all gone, because anybody 30+ is just too old to dance.

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skittlesmoo 02/19/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

I got beat (not physically) down from my dream of becoming a performer. I'm becoming a doctor. You can do both, you just have to really want it.

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ricerush 02/19/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

[quote] cwalkpikachu : But I'm afraid that BECAUSE it's a dream, when I wake up, it'll be over like that. And in the end, I'd end up a failure. Because if I do pursue my dream, and I don't make it, how will I face the real world again [my parents and friends]? [/quote] If you give it your BEST shot, and it is TRULY what you want in life. You will not fail.

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TheLazyPotato 02/19/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Be a doctor that dances while operating on patients?

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TimelessMoments 02/19/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Your dreams will be crushed sooner or later.

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SuckMyKiss 02/19/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

[quote] ricerush : If you give it your BEST shot, and it is TRULY what you want in life. You will not fail. [/quote] nahh, he can still fail lol. but at least he tried.

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