I realised something about Love.

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thread starter TeaLeaves Aug 07 2009 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Don't you think loving someone is like really weird. I just want to tell you my story. And how my life suddenly changed so fast. dont read this, if you are homophobic Its kinda about me finding myself and who i am. Kinda inspirational, thats for you to decide. About 2-3 months ago, I would be CERTAIN that i would not look at another guy twice. It even disgust me to an extent. I was certain i'm what every classified as 'straight' But that all changed. I never really noticed him at first. But we became gradually became good friends. We would hang out, movies, beach. Do what normal friends did. I was feeling happy, comfortable around him. I didn't know what this feeling was. It was weird. I keep telling myself i'm straight but soon i was beginning to doubt that. I became confuse. It was weird. But i couldn't deny i felt safe around him. I became scared. How would my friends think? my family? How would everyone treat me? So i stopped seeing him completely. It hurt. I felt lonely, it was like a part of me was missing. Then something happend that changed me. He was hospitalised. He got attacked by someone. That was when my feelings actually came out. I realised that if he died, i would die too. That i don't want to see him hurt ever again. That i truly cared for him. I realise that loving someone doesnt consider gender, race, height or anything. Love is love. Gay, straight, bi; they're all just labels. Its the one that you truly love that matters. I now know how my life changed so expectantly. Just because of one person. I would never look at a girl now. Yes i know, its wierd. But i can tell you now if i see a girl naked now i would not get aroused but a few months ago i would. So yeh, i just realise love can change you. Now i accept myself for who i am. If loving one person makes me gay or a f-- well, thats who i am and i can't change that. Yeh, i just felt like sharing that. These last few months been pretty crazy. it was a time of like learnign new thing and discovery I know it sounds corny but yeh..

ClementZ 08/07/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

That's deep. I hope this impacts the minds of the ignorant.

iguane33 08/07/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

That was very nice

MmmPotato 08/07/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

~Is in a good mood after reading that~ That's great for you, thanks for sharing. :>

DeMoNiAk 08/07/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Nice story, bud. I mean it.

TheAwesomeOne 08/07/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Sorry, I'm still christian and I still think it's wrong. But, at least you found love.

bluewafflez 08/07/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Cool poem. Shame it doesn't rhyme

LOLOMGBBQ 08/07/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

I give this threads a thumbs up d(^^)

Hakgi Aug 07 2009 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

The level of pure cuteness in your story could kill XD But in all seriousness, congratulations and good for you! I hope things turn out well for you two

ShaneYen 08/07/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Nice. :D I'm not christian enough to care if people are gay or not, I don't care about that stuff. I only judge by personality.

tianyin 08/07/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

I think this doesnt necessarily meant you are gay thought, because some people just doesnt get aroused by anything except the person they like/love in your case. Go see a gay adult eh film (mod dont ban please) and see if you get aroused. I think you just happen to fall in love with a guy, this doesnt meant you are gay. :O You case sound like you are bisexual :o I am. o_o Good luck in your relationship :>

FatelessNexus 08/07/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

It's hard to come out and accept who you are. I'm glad that you stopped denying and lying to yourself. Hope things get better. =]

Brutus 08/07/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

I'm proud of you.

r1celegend 08/07/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

I'm glad that you could express your feelings and accept yourself as who you are, regardless of what others may think. :]

TotoroTotoro 08/07/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

That Love is all there is, Is all we know of Love ~Emily Dckinson