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thread starter mehdeleted Jul 06 2010 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

i am 15 i have moderate acne and am sitting in my house on the computer keeping an eye on my sisters while my parents are at work, i live in hawaii, i am having anxiety because i am lonely because i am not able to get out of the house due to having to watch my sisters, and can get out on choice weekdays and weekends, but am unable to get occupied because my friends are 80% likely to be busy. i am 6'1 195 pounds, (suprisingly not husky, just large) and i would feel happy if i could just get a girl who understands me, someone comically quirky and apprehensive to how the outside world is changing(justin bieber disdain.) and i am a momma's boy, and daddy's boy, have a strong family ethic but are extremely shy around more confident people, i am a lvl 71 outlaw, you?

My Characters: wooshkabu - 71 Scania Outlaw

Serenation + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

I'm a no-life bastard who's just sitting here listening to music and feeling high and looking at slr lens pictures to make me dizzier and dancing and shaking my body and nodding my head in my chair while I'm deeply and madly in love with my ex who treats me like crap and I'm cutting myself atm because it makes this dizziness-drugged sensation even better while stuffing myself with chocolate and I feel like throwing up and my dog died and i'm still sad as hell because my other dog hates me and I have no friends at all not even online or irl and I'm 16 and I'm gay and I have an anxiety disorder and panic sindrome and clinical depression and almost developing other disorders and I hate myself god I'm so freaking ugly too and i'm not putting any periods or anything in this sentence because I don't freaking feel like it so deal with it and I think I have a thing for this guy who claims to be 37 years old and i'm editing this all the time while I think of stuff and i'm listening to I WANNA STAND WITH YOU ON A MOUNTAINNN I WANNA BATHE WITH YOU IN A SEAAAA and oh my god I can't stop shaking my legs and I'm gonna be dying my hair blond soon and I'm gonna show up to my other side of my family and be like SUCK ITTTTTTT because they're all like homophobic and stuff BY THE WAY I'm holding in my pee right now and it makes this sensation sooo much better too lkollolololo i'm also a spoiled brat who has never done any dirty work in my life and I probably wont ever work and sponge off of my parents forever because we're rich oh and my name is Freddy.

My Characters: Minuette - 28 Scania Dawn Warrior

OhShutUp + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

prepare yourself for a novel without a plot or any sense of direction with some pretty crap grammar, but I don't really care as all I want to do is get all this off my chest. I'll probably end up going off in a tangent and never finish my train of thought. I am a fifteen year old Asian female that also has moderate acne / acne scars on her forehead. I'm at my cousin's house, skipping on dinner cause I ate a lot today for lunch, and I kinda feel fat. (I'm five feet and 110 pounds). Right now, I'm pretty lonely with nothing to do and no one to talk to. I just want to go home, but my sisters wanted to play with my cousin. I'm feeling kind of down because I haven't been able to get out of their house all day. I'm kind of excited about tomorrow, because I have a guitar lesson with a really cute guy, but my pining's kind of useless because he has a girlfriend, and besides, he just graduated from my high school (he's eighteen). I'm avoiding one of my "close" friends right now because she really hurt my feelings, but I think she didn't realize it. I'm afraid to tell her about it, though, because I'm worried she's going to be mad at me or something. And there is my biggest flaw: I think too much. I worry far more than I should about what other people think about me, and I have a really low self esteem. I'm horribly shy, and I'm afraid of speaking my mind because I'll think that other people will make fun of me or whatever. I have more friends online than I do in real life. I don't know, it's just hard to explain. My mom's mad at me because I wrestled her to the ground to keep her from reading my aim convo yesterday. I'm not close to my dad because I'm not even sure if he's my real dad or not (he and my mother were married when I was seven). I would ask my mother, but I'm just terrified she'll get mad at me. I still play maplestory, and I have a 15x DrK, a 14x hero, among others. ... you know, I have so much more I could say, but I don't think anyone's gonna read this, anyway, haha.

My Characters: Isabel - 41 Bera Cleric

Sodacombo 07/06/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

I'm 19, bisexual female getting bored in front of my laptop. I have nothing to do, it's raining, I miss my best friend so much although I can send her SMS.. but still it's not the same hungry and cold.

My Characters: Sodacombo - 53 Scania Aran in Memory

IIIlllIII 07/06/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

I'm 34, bisexual, 6'9' kewl

Deciduous 07/06/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

18 yr old college dropout works as a manager at a local movie theatre, has a small (read: three) group of friends that he spends some of his free time with most of life is spent working or relaxing at home online spends too much money eating out since he's always at work, is too lazy to cook, has very little food in his house anyways self-confidence issues that lead to him hardly ever smiling or outright laughing, though he's the jokester of the group and uh, stuff he's not great at randomly talking about himself

My Characters: Abrasador - 43 Windia Blaze Wizard

solikewhatsup 07/06/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Im reading manga atm.

mehdeleted 07/06/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

[quote] SarahROFL : I'm 14, straight, 5'6, shy around new people, and the highlight of my summer will be visiting Maui for a month (starting the 23rd). Until then, I've been going to parties w/ my friends and browsing basil. I care a lot about people, possibly more than they do for me. If anyone messes with my friends, they'll hear from me. I get jealous easily. I overthink the smallest things. My best friend left me for this girl that ruined my life, but I made a new one, resulting in my old one being jealous whenever I hang out with people (long story short, their mom threatened to call the cops on my friend for hanging out with me instead of her lololol). I live in CT. I love the smell of Old Spice. Highest is 73 blaze wiz, and that's probably as high as I'll get due to my inability to train (so boring to me). -Gradually adding things- [/quote] you should go to the top of haleakala squat down, breathe heavily and stand up and blow on your thumb, and go to little beach and just look around.

My Characters: wooshkabu - 71 Scania Outlaw

EliteNow 07/06/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

I hate being judgmental of others. I hate thinking so negatively of others. I hate that I don't like anyone. The few that I do like, I become enamored with them too quickly. I don't feel like my life is my own.

Arho 07/06/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

16, agnostic, skitzophrenic, in love with a girl who wants just to be friends, in high school with no future plans I wish I could go back to the ignorant bliss I had as a child Teenage angst is lovely...

megaf6 07/06/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

I'm a 17 year old college student that loves gaming, and doesn't have a social life. My parents and brother are my best friends. I treat my dog like a sister, and I drink a liter of diet mountain dew a day. Yep, that's my life in a nutshell :P

My Characters: iCanHasBow - 96 Windia Ranger

mehdeleted 07/06/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

[quote] OhShutUp : prepare yourself for a novel without a plot or any sense of direction with some pretty crap grammar, but I don't really care as all I want to do is get all this off my chest. I'll probably end up going off in a tangent and never finish my train of thought. I am a fifteen year old Asian female that also has moderate acne / acne scars on her forehead. I'm at my cousin's house, skipping on dinner cause I ate a lot today for lunch, and I kinda feel fat. (I'm five feet and 110 pounds). Right now, I'm pretty lonely with nothing to do and no one to talk to. I just want to go home, but my sisters wanted to play with my cousin. I'm feeling kind of down because I haven't been able to get out of their house all day. I'm kind of excited about tomorrow, because I have a guitar lesson with a really cute guy, but my pining's kind of useless because he has a girlfriend, and besides, he just graduated from my high school (he's eighteen). I'm avoiding one of my "close" friends right now because she really hurt my feelings, but I think she didn't realize it. I'm afraid to tell her about it, though, because I'm worried she's going to be mad at me or something. And there is my biggest flaw: I think too much. I worry far more than I should about what other people think about me, and I have a really low self esteem. I'm horribly shy, and I'm afraid of speaking my mind because I'll think that other people will make fun of me or whatever. I have more friends online than I do in real life. I don't know, it's just hard to explain. My mom's mad at me because I wrestled her to the ground to keep her from reading my aim convo yesterday. I'm not close to my dad because I'm not even sure if he's my real dad or not (he and my mother were married when I was seven). I would ask my mother, but I'm just terrified she'll get mad at me. I still play maplestory, and I have a 15x DrK, a 14x hero, among others. ... you know, I have so much more I could say, but I don't think anyone's gonna read this, anyway, haha. [/quote] i read it...

My Characters: wooshkabu - 71 Scania Outlaw

Karamazov 07/06/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

i'm 18 and i don't care about anything. i haven't been accepted to any university but I'm waiting. no job, but i've got mad money. listen to music and hang with friends almost 24/7. currently working on various music projects with my friends.

My Characters: Gleamer - 8 Broa Archer

superseal + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

I like how about half of everyone who posted said their sexual orientation right after their age. Only on basil, am I wrong? Well, here goes. I'm Wilson. I'm 15, and I have a girlfriend. We haven't really done anything yet, though it's only been like two weeks. Personally, I'm afraid that it'll turn out to be one of those immature relationships that don't mean anything. I do not want this to happen, we actually talk, and I really do care about her. She said she wanted to take it slow, as it is her first "real" relationship. I'm fine with that, because it's my first real one too. I think I'm taking it too slow, although I'm just too shy to make a move or do anything. Sigh... but I digress. I've stopped playing MapleStory after playing on and off because of friends. It has gotten very boring to me. I'm in summer school, and tomorrow will be the third day of hell. I'm taking Civics and Careers, for reach ahead. There is so much work to be done in so little time, it's overwhelming. Also, I think that there's this one girl who likes me... she gets her friend to talk to me and such, even though it was only the second day. He didn't say much, though. All he did was ask for my name, and then ask if we were friends. I said "Why?" to the second question, although I'm regretting it. I really could use some friends in summer school. I didn't realize that people signed up with their friends. My family i distant, compared to other families. I get shy to ask things from or to even talk to my parents, especially my dad, who doesn't live with me, but in the States. My brother and I visit him every summer, taking two planes in each direction. He used to live in LA, and that was more fun, because he took us to beaches and cousins' houses and other fun places. I am very lazy when it comes to school work. You can usually find me finishing projects at 2AM the day before they're due(technically, the morning they're due)... it's a horrible habit, and it's causing my grades to suffer. Especially with this overload of summer school work, I find myself rushing through assignments to get them done, which will definitely lower my mark a lot. Even as I type this long ass post that no one will even read(I hope), I'm supposed to be drawing a title page and completing an assignment. Here I am, back again, although I am not sure of what I am going to type now. I think I just came back because my post didn't seem like a huge, menacing wall of text, meaning people might actually read it, even when the thread is already up to page 14, and this post is on page 2. Thinking about life, it makes me sad. Or, maybe I can only see the negative things about my life. It's like this, at night. Sometimes I just cry my eyes out as I lay in my bed, longing for a family that acts like they care for me or some other pathetic thing like that. I feel, I have pushed that last, impacting line much too farther down than I had expected, and thus, it is now irrelevant to the immediate topic. Oh well... h

My Characters: WwiIsonN - 95 Khaini Crusader

Harman2 07/06/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

[quote] TeenDream : I'm 17, straight. I'm basically the coolest guy here. [/quote] Impostor. Tell the truth. Dont try to impersonate me.

My Characters: Dipperkiiier - 44 Broa Page

zelda589 07/06/10 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

im 13 have a gf have skipped a couple of grades been accepted to 3 collages A+ honor roll and been invited to china my gf is almost a smart as me and she relates to the same thing about skipping grades