feeling lonely

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thread starter lxseto Aug 11 2009 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

I only have 2 friends on AIM that I talk to and they don't even like talking to me. Since high school started I stopped what little chatting I even had with any other of my buddies because I never know what to talk to anymore and feel completely isolated. I've never really had any close friends since middle school started because I have horrible self esteem and social skills. For a year or so I've been feeling very very lonely because everyone around me seemed to be in a group and always having fun while I'm always alone. I want to be in a group but when when I was younger I was bullied a lot but even so, I try to talk to people and be in groups but I feel extremely awkward and can't even talk right. I've also been having a lot more problems with my parents and feel frustrated at them and can't tell them about my life anymore. Most of my time is spent alone in my room on the computer and even this is beginning to feel boring and lonely. All of this is beginning to get to me and is bugging me a lot more since it's summer. Don't really know why I'm posting this but I just feel like I had to let it out.

malapo 08/11/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

you just described me man

Debauch 08/11/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

I'm under your bed if you ever need to talk.

Fafafa 08/11/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

i don't know how not to feel lonely ;_;

SkyBlue 08/11/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

i m here for you if you dont have freinds look for some in your school maybe theres someone out there for you i feel really bad andim kinda goin through the exact same thing =(

lxseto 08/11/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

malapo : you just described me man cool. it's nice to have someone who can sympathize with me.

InFatesHands Aug 11 2009 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Eh... man I can relate :/ you're not alone on this

Cyrus0 08/11/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Cyrus0 can be your friend. Here, have a cookie :D

xknight1001 08/11/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

If you transfer to a new school you get a fresh start, it sure helped me a lot.

GreenChocobo 08/11/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

I see my friends in the negatives. It helps.

Playstation 08/11/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Talk to your mother about it o-o.

foxman13 08/11/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

thats exactly how my life is

Falician 08/11/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

i don't know how that feels, but i see kids like that around. and im a jerk and dont invite them to hang out, i can only imagine how you can feel, and i hope you find some good friends soon!

OmgManda 08/11/09 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

Im sorry, All my friends kinda left me behind. Im used to being alone now.

ExtravaGabe Aug 11 2009 + PM | QUOTE | PERMALINK | REPORT

-face desk 100 times- This is exactly how my life should be described and sometimes it makes me want to cry. I'm 17, I have no job, and I'm on the verge of getting kicked out of High School and yet I still can't seem to realize it all. I bury all my sorrow into my computer, in the heat, I eat when I'm depressed, and whenever I hang out with my cousin and all her other friends I'm just completely silent for the whole night without a single peep out of my mouth, I only speak when I'm spoken to and that's pretty much a rare occasion... My parents can't really look at me in the eye anymore and I do the same to them, I recently met a girl that already thinks I'm a jackass cause she thinks I don't want to talk to her and she thinks that I'm lying about being single and get accused of talking and messing around with this imaginary girl I keep get accused of being with. There really isn't anyone that I can talk to about my problems cause everything just gets redirected back towards my parents and I don't even wanna give them anymore pressure then they have now. I really hate my life, there are times where I just feel like mindlessly wandering off around my roof and hope to walk off of any edge and end my life right there, whenever I get this feeling, I shower or sleep it off, sometimes I don't even bother showering for the past 2 maybe 3 days sometimes 4 if I feel incredibly crappy. I want to change, honestly I don't think my life would be like this if me and my ex-girlfriend from 2007 didn't break up, she kept me out of trouble, she kept me focused in school, and she basically put a smile on my face and I never knew how much I took her for granted...