thread starter SlyOne May 19 2009
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| And it's ever since I started playing Maplestory. I could not control myself and limit my computer use but I am too selfish and I end up procrastinating and I find I do the same with my homework. I come home, "I'll do my homework soon" *10:00P.M* Yeah, yeah I will do it just now. I end up going to bed and this is why I also get bad marks. I don't focus. I have terrible marks compared to when I was an active kid and I could control myself. I am in grade 10 currently and I only get average marks of high 60's and 70's. In the computer tech stuff is where I get the big 80's 90's but elsewhere I fail... My mom told me to stop playing this game years ago. I still played. I was forced to quit at one point, I came back very slowly...Maplestory is like a drug to me. x_x Well now I'm closely moving away from it but I go to other games which still affect my life. I notice I became very lazy ever since I started knowing about computers. It's like the computer is my life but that still doesn't affect on how I feel about my family. I love them dearly. Sometimes they really piss me off but, that's life. My mom and grandma tell me the computer is very bad and it will run me mad if I don't stop using it all day. What do I do? I still use it. I listen to them then after a week or so it's straight back to square one. I start doing it again. I got moved down from academic math to applied. I chose to after I was getting left behind. Another cause is my lack of working. The homework is what can save me but I choose not to do it. I fail yet again. This morning my mom said I am running her crazy because of my computer use and she will destroy my computer. She did that already and ripped out my keyboard and mouse till the wires were exposed. One day I feel like yelling and arguing and the next day we get along and everything is fine. Seriously, I think I have it too well here. I hate how my mom tells me to do chores when I'm in the middle of something interesting or whatnot. Mom: Come take out the garbage! Me: In a minute! 30 seconds later my mom will come back telling me that she told me to take it out. I was just about to take it out and she starts fretting. There are times when I hate my sister because it seems like my mom loves her better when I actually have more love towards her than my sister. My sister can do things like do homework late while I can't. She is one year younger than me and she has many privileges while I have boundaries and obstacles in my way. Sometimes I feel like running away. When my mom is angry she tells me she will send me back to my dad since I'm causing more stress on her. (My parents are divorced and I don't want to go with my dad.) My social and friend life is okay but some other things....>_> I can't study well and I get easily distracted. When tests are near and I know everything, I get this sudden mind blankout and I forget everything. My mom also gets pissed at me because of my bad memory. Whenever I forget something she would blame |
